Space!!!

I love my boyfriend. I love my relationship, but sometimes I have to admit that we need space. It’s not as if I am not reminded of this frequently by people on Tv shows, or sitcoms I watch, friends close to me, but sometimes it is easily to forget what one may need for their own relationship. I remember my boyfriend telling me once, that moving in would be the quickest way for our relationship to end. No I haven’t moved in, but I’m pretty damn close. I live with three boys and I can say that sometimes the apartment can get a little away from where I like it. They are not very messy boys at all, but they do think like boys when it comes to exactly what clean is, but compared to others it is by far the best of those, but because of how good this relationship has been to me I have easily forgotten where home actually is. I spend so much time at his place that any where else seems foreign. His house is comfortable and desirable. Sometimes he comes right out and tells me when he needs his space, but a few days ago it was as if that time frame did not fit into mine. I wasn’t ready to give space and so I stayed. I didn’t realize how much he needed space until we both snapped! I must say I was a little afraid that day! I felt as if he pulled something out of myself that day that made me feel outside of my character. There was too much of myself and too much of him. It was diffidently time for a break, and so that was just what I gave him. Not a long break, just a night off. I came back to his place the next day to take a nap and because of the large argument we had the day before we had both forgiven each other and laughed at our issue. I learned to give him space when he needs it and not be afraid. I felt like our relationship was started in the presence of another woman and it made me feel insecure to leave him ever. I was afraid that when he wasn’t with me he would be with her, so I fixed it! I would always be with him, but I don’t think this tactic worked. I mean I did end up with him, but I feel as though this behavior caused me to step away from myself and my life because I was so worried about him. I feel as though I made it hard for him to do the things he wanted to do and I felt as if this were not fair as well. We have been together for 3 ½ months now and it feels like forever. We have been dating since October and so it’s time to step out of the honey moon stage and allow the actual test to come on. The reality behind the situation is that by giving each other space, we actually are more excited to see one another. I sometimes wonder if this feeling is really that real. It’s so surreal. But all I can say is that I have actually learned that space is something that is imperative in a relationship and that it is the responsibility of both parties to make sure that they give each other the desired amount.