The Dog

How do you realize if a friendship is over? It's sad that when things happen in your life you tend to gravitate always from others while gravitating toward others. Last summer I experienced a lesson that changed my life. While I have become more aware, I stopped caring about certain things, stopped making an effort in other areas, and allowed some relationships to fall off. Not on purpose of course, for I love everyone, but my happiness source has changed and has caused my interest to slightly change. Relationships are scary because as you become closer to one, you loose your ability to be close with others including yourself. I love my friends, but as my interest change, so do they. While I have many relationships that this pertains to I have a lingering in my heart for one in particular. He came to me as obvious as he left. He was funny, warm, and real. While he could trick others, I always knew that he would never be able to trick me. Then one day he joined a group. I’m guessing he joined this group for a brotherhood, some type of system he assumed would always be there, but while they will always be there, does it mean they will always be real? The look in their eyes as I tried to pull him always was enticing. I gave up as their grip was a lot stronger then my own, but now I feel as though I too have lost the one I once loved like my own. He is with them now and I have come to accept this. Is this my fault? Did I let go of this relationship before he did? When do I go back, if I ever do? Is this it?